TheBeast
07-19-2007, 01:02 PM
NATURE OF THE BEAST
Nobody can see the emptiness
That you hide within your heart
Nobody can see the void
That takes control of your soul
Nobody can feel your isolation
Inside, you know, you feel
Completely and utterly alone
Nobody can see or feel this
Nobody but this Beast
From very early on
I saw, I felt, I knew
The strong connection that grew between us
The ease at which we became so comfortable
Not only with each other
But within each other
Something that I have never felt before
I had always been withdrawn
Hiding behind the animal inside me
But with you, beside you
You feel my heart and soul flourish
With every taste of your beauty
Having gone through most of my life
Without having known what true feelings were
Having never felt a thing
Scars took the place of compassion
My heart, my black, ice cold heart
Filled with a thirst for pain
A hunger to make my prey hurt intensely
I just don't know, how to put to words
This thing that grows inside me
Damn how I wish I could sleep
If only for a few hours
Sleep, but not dream
Dreaming would only make me miss you more
Make me long to taste you until it hurts
But sleep is not for the wicked
Did I really think this Beast
Would simply set me free
Allow his bait to follow his own path
His hold over me is strong
Sometimes I sit and wonder
Try to recall every relationship I have had
So many nameless faces
Did I ever care for even one of those girls
My deceit seemed to always be a constant
I wish I knew
Just why it was that I enjoy
Inflicting my pain upon each girl I take
Why do I enjoy hurting someone I should care for
The pills seem to be taking far too long to work
Far too long to kill this emptiness
Even after all the alcohol in me
I still feel the full Beast that I am
I swore I wouldn't drink
Promised myself to stay away
But the Beast wins again
I just want this hollow feeling to go away
I just want to feel what it is like
To have this Beast off my back
Grey would be the colour
If I had a heart
Wanting to make every moment of your life
Full of nothing but happiness
Yet unable to stop this Beast from venting his wrath
As low as I feel right now
Not being able to hear the sweetness of your voice
Or taste those adorable lips
I feel like I am buried alive
Enclosed within and under six feet of concrete
You have me addicted
To someone that deserves so much better than me
I adored you
From the very first moment
That I felt the presence of your soul
You succeeded where nobody else has
You make me smile
Something I have never truly felt
Though I have faked a smile or two in the past
It is only since you came into my life
That I truly feel like smiling
When we are together
Even when we are apart
You are all that I see
All that I think about
I wish I could hear your voice
As I sit here contemplating yet another drink
Hear you call my name
Wanting me to hold you
To touch you, kiss your lips
But all I hear is this Beast
As he mocks me
Mocks everything that I am
All I want, All I need
Is everything that you are
My twisted soul
My stone cold heart
My sick, demented and devious mind
This Beast has never been left wanting
The pain of the prey
I fed on it, I thrived on it
It won't work if it don;t hurt
And hurt is a world that you will grow to love
A world that this Beat longs to show you
The pain he inflicts will be slow and lasting
It will be nothing short of tantalizing
You will beg this Beast to see,to feel more
To feel the power that can only come
From a pain so merciless, its sheer pleasure
I'll come to you in your dreams
The tase of this Beast will haunt your nightmares
EVerywhere that you go
I will be there
Waiting patiently
To torture your flesh endlessly
Now I know, I can feel
That the pills have finally taken full affect
That I have had too much to drink
The drivel seems to flow too easily
Feeling so numb inside
All I think about is you
All I know is how much I want you
How much we belong together
So different on the surface
Yet practically the same being inside
When we are apart
It is as though someone or something
Has taken away my entire world
Placed my life on hold, on hiatus, in purgatory
Simply wanting for us to be together again
I miss you so much
I have missed you everyday
Being away from you for longer than a few days
Seems to feel like a life sentence in hell
I want you
I need you
What I see
When I look into your eyes
Is Destiny, fate
A purity that I cannot live without any longer
You are all I have ever really wanted
What I would give
Just to hold you in my arms right now
I'm dying a slow, painful death
Every day I spend without you
In my arms.
Nobody can see the emptiness
That you hide within your heart
Nobody can see the void
That takes control of your soul
Nobody can feel your isolation
Inside, you know, you feel
Completely and utterly alone
Nobody can see or feel this
Nobody but this Beast
From very early on
I saw, I felt, I knew
The strong connection that grew between us
The ease at which we became so comfortable
Not only with each other
But within each other
Something that I have never felt before
I had always been withdrawn
Hiding behind the animal inside me
But with you, beside you
You feel my heart and soul flourish
With every taste of your beauty
Having gone through most of my life
Without having known what true feelings were
Having never felt a thing
Scars took the place of compassion
My heart, my black, ice cold heart
Filled with a thirst for pain
A hunger to make my prey hurt intensely
I just don't know, how to put to words
This thing that grows inside me
Damn how I wish I could sleep
If only for a few hours
Sleep, but not dream
Dreaming would only make me miss you more
Make me long to taste you until it hurts
But sleep is not for the wicked
Did I really think this Beast
Would simply set me free
Allow his bait to follow his own path
His hold over me is strong
Sometimes I sit and wonder
Try to recall every relationship I have had
So many nameless faces
Did I ever care for even one of those girls
My deceit seemed to always be a constant
I wish I knew
Just why it was that I enjoy
Inflicting my pain upon each girl I take
Why do I enjoy hurting someone I should care for
The pills seem to be taking far too long to work
Far too long to kill this emptiness
Even after all the alcohol in me
I still feel the full Beast that I am
I swore I wouldn't drink
Promised myself to stay away
But the Beast wins again
I just want this hollow feeling to go away
I just want to feel what it is like
To have this Beast off my back
Grey would be the colour
If I had a heart
Wanting to make every moment of your life
Full of nothing but happiness
Yet unable to stop this Beast from venting his wrath
As low as I feel right now
Not being able to hear the sweetness of your voice
Or taste those adorable lips
I feel like I am buried alive
Enclosed within and under six feet of concrete
You have me addicted
To someone that deserves so much better than me
I adored you
From the very first moment
That I felt the presence of your soul
You succeeded where nobody else has
You make me smile
Something I have never truly felt
Though I have faked a smile or two in the past
It is only since you came into my life
That I truly feel like smiling
When we are together
Even when we are apart
You are all that I see
All that I think about
I wish I could hear your voice
As I sit here contemplating yet another drink
Hear you call my name
Wanting me to hold you
To touch you, kiss your lips
But all I hear is this Beast
As he mocks me
Mocks everything that I am
All I want, All I need
Is everything that you are
My twisted soul
My stone cold heart
My sick, demented and devious mind
This Beast has never been left wanting
The pain of the prey
I fed on it, I thrived on it
It won't work if it don;t hurt
And hurt is a world that you will grow to love
A world that this Beat longs to show you
The pain he inflicts will be slow and lasting
It will be nothing short of tantalizing
You will beg this Beast to see,to feel more
To feel the power that can only come
From a pain so merciless, its sheer pleasure
I'll come to you in your dreams
The tase of this Beast will haunt your nightmares
EVerywhere that you go
I will be there
Waiting patiently
To torture your flesh endlessly
Now I know, I can feel
That the pills have finally taken full affect
That I have had too much to drink
The drivel seems to flow too easily
Feeling so numb inside
All I think about is you
All I know is how much I want you
How much we belong together
So different on the surface
Yet practically the same being inside
When we are apart
It is as though someone or something
Has taken away my entire world
Placed my life on hold, on hiatus, in purgatory
Simply wanting for us to be together again
I miss you so much
I have missed you everyday
Being away from you for longer than a few days
Seems to feel like a life sentence in hell
I want you
I need you
What I see
When I look into your eyes
Is Destiny, fate
A purity that I cannot live without any longer
You are all I have ever really wanted
What I would give
Just to hold you in my arms right now
I'm dying a slow, painful death
Every day I spend without you
In my arms.